tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123090932011-04-21T18:28:32.412-07:00crystalnoreply@blogger.comBlogger1041100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1169909481848479482007-01-27T06:20:00.000-08:002007-01-27T06:51:22.266-08:00My dear little ones.. I'm fine.<br />though it hard to forget everything but I'll try my very best.<br />don't worry Perry, I'm a strong girl.<br />I will be able to walk out of this period.<br />what every happened during o levels, during and after prom which eventually drag till my china trip is however still living vividly in my heart.<br />perhaps forgetting it is too hard.<br />probably keep it as a memory rather than a nightmare or lesson learnt can be of less painful.<br />my foolish act to step into that place even after many people discouraging.<br />when love is foolish and stubborn itself.<br />many tell me to stop being foolish and move on as I deserve better.<br />but the point is not about comparing partners or what he deserves you or not.<br />the matter lies with the fact that feelings cannot be easily forgotten or cultured within a short period.<br />liling, as I have told you on Monday.<br />I will no longer stop you for doing anything foolish because I am too.<br />however I still know whets rational.<br />I will no longer support your decision towards that particular matter.<br />you and I both know really well about the outcome.<br />but your stubbornness insisted that you gave it a last try.<br />however ling, you need to have a strong and firm stand<br />please do not be easily swayed and influenced<br />both Perry and I are really worried about you GRADUALLY getting hurt.<br />when I shan't make things sound so obvious.<br />if you are reading this article, please for god's sake love ling wholeheartedly.<br />stop hurting her, the amount of hurt you gave ling is comparable to the amount of love ling showered upon you.<br />well you can hate me for all you want for blogging such a post but you can never stop ling from loving you.<br />no one has the rights to inflict pain onto one another but in life we always cross that boundary.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-116990948184847948?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1169291530681395892007-01-20T03:01:00.000-08:002007-01-21T05:03:45.193-08:00<p style="text-align: justify;" class="MsoNormal">Apparently it has been decades since I blog.<br />Once again i will start the entry with sentences like so many events have occurred and I have absolute no idea of how to present them.<br />Well. simple as that life is never fair.<br />Sometimes you will get to be really lucky while others tend to be really unfortunate.<br />Perhaps i am really unfortunate.<br />After that significant event in July, he came back asking how I was on Thursday, 18 of January 2007.<br />He asked if I still fancy him even though he has been attached.<br />Explanation to this was that he wanted to clear things up.<br />I mean whats the point?<br />You mean you still want me to be your friend after toying with me?<br />You actually thought that I really didnt hate you?<br />Although I told you I never hated you a single bit but I very much hated you.<br />You could never imagine the life that I had when you had another girl in your arms.<br />You could never imagine me crying and you laughing with her.<br />You brought all this to me and I stupidly believed all your lies.<br />Well. I couldn’t say its entirely your fault because you came with the lamest and lousiest reasons saying that you left because you felt that it was the wrong time to approach me and probably I am not the girl for you.<br />Wow.seriously you make yourself sound so low.<br />U actually have to use such excuses to make yourself sound so good or rather less gulity.<br />you tried to be a gentleman by telling me that he still loves me a lot.<br />Wow!!!!!!!!!!!<br />You said that he was your good friend.<br />Can u imagine me telling him what you actually have done?<br />Can you still face him?<br />You when after his ex and toyed with her feeling and then tried to bring them back together?<br />Seriously your actions cant deny the fact that youre a loser.<br />You snatched someone else’s girlfriend to be yours.<br />Apparently the only conclusion I ever get from you is that U LOVE STUFF THAT OTHERS OWN.<br />U don’t have a life…<br />You live in the shadows of others.<br />U believe that the happiness shared between the others can be snatched and taken away by you.<br />Well I just want to you, I pity you.<br />You will never gain my respect or trust because you have betrayed them. </p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-116929153068139589?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1166330777269788972006-12-16T20:36:00.000-08:002006-12-16T20:46:17.280-08:00it has been a long time since i have blog..<br />hahah simply because i have no idea where to start with...<br />i juz flew back from hainan (china) on the 14th..<br />i when to attend my relatives wedding..<br />well wad can i say...<br />china is not exaCTLY the place i waould wanna stay...<br />dun really wanna mention abt this trip..<br />anyway i'm flyin to beijing and then to shanghai on the 23th<br />spending christmas there..<br />hope that things can be better...<br />perhaps i can forget some stuff there..<br />heard that beijing is getting colder and colder..<br /> it around 5 to -7 degree celsius...<br />guess it gonna be fun...<br />just hope that everything is gonna be alrite..<br /><br /><br />word to him...<br />u think by letting tat caller to decide everything for u is correct,<br />well be it..<br />simply irresponsible...<br />u only think abt yourself...<br />have u ever thought abt wad might happen to me?<br />u only believe and insists on ur own way...<br />if since this is the case, live on lyk tat..<br />i wouldnt forgive u..<br /> <p class="MsoNormal"><br /></p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-116633077726978897?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1153531634459944872006-07-21T18:01:00.000-07:002006-07-21T18:27:14.513-07:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/DSC00524.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/DSC00524.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />my little mew mew is going for sterilization today....<br />woke up a little before time...<br />unable to sleep really well last night...<br />toss and turn on the bed...<br />well... you might be thinking tat its just a minor operation... why so uptight able...<br />well.. i have read up on cases in which the cats are not able to withstand the anesthetic and literally die on the operation theatre...<br />fear send shivers down my spine....<br />really terrified...<br />and yesterday afternoon, i brought home 2 little new born kittens....<br />jie jie was very fascinated by the new infants...<br />the eyes of the little kitten unopen...<br />one of the kitten's umbilical cord is still attach to its body...<br />it is just a few days old...<br />its terribly small....<br />haha... some say that it look like a monkey as the ears are not really developed...<br />hahaha...<br />well.. my cat was really angry with me..<br />she hissed and bite me when i try to carry her...<br />she was actually offended when i brought other cats home...<br />she hid in my room all day long..<br />didnt want to come out..<br />until night time when i came home from tuition, she finally came out...<br />my mom said that the cat was so affected that she didnt want to come out for dinner until i was back...<br />mommy reprimanded me for putting mew mew under such torment...<br />my heart literally broke..<br />when i only thought that my cat was selfish and was unable to accept other cats...<br />well.. i have gtg...<br />need to bring her to the clinic now...<br />pray hard that everything's going to be all right...<br />ciaoz...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-115353163445994487?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1151802952750895882006-07-01T18:04:00.000-07:002006-07-01T18:22:40.526-07:00what has the world turn to...<br />BRAZIL LOST TO FRANCE....<br />I HATE FRANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br />once again it reminded me of him...<br />he once say that....<br />many gerls don really watch soccer with their bf..<br />i m one of those few.. very rare...<br />i haven being contacting him ever since friday nite...<br />i hope i can really get over it...<br />his words, his every movement rang my mind every minute...<br />why must he tell him those stuff...<br />wad the fuck....<br />he dont understand the torment i m undergoing now...<br />he feels bad to others wad abt me?<br />hai... i dunnno la....<br />let him do wadeva he wans to...<br />as long as he is happy and doesnt regret them can le...<br />i dunno wad to ask for any further...<br />i guess forgetting him is the best solution...<br />cause i dun seem to see any light in hold on to his feelings...<br />i dun seem to see any future....<br />as much as i wan him badly, i still choose to give up...<br />i dunno why..<br />i m so starting to lose faith in him and love le....<br />so many ppl warned me abt him...<br />so many told me to be careful and yet i still fall for the trap...<br />i dunno wad has gotten over me...<br />i noe my irregular meals have made liling very worried...<br />but ling, i will try my best ta eat de...<br />i may seem to be pathetic and indulging into self-pity...<br />i will try to get over them de...<br />thanks liling, shi qi, shamine, li jun, michelle for being there...<br />u all meant alot to me... i will try to get over de....<br />i love u peeps...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-115180295275089588?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1151726700220989502006-06-30T20:46:00.000-07:002006-06-30T21:22:49.066-07:00well what can i say.....<br />things have happen and i feel so torn apart.....<br />maybe reasons alot are not enough for me...<br />maybe love is just too ambitious itself....<br />perhaps what has happen might just be the best solution to resolve the internal conflict within him...<br />oh well.. what can i say......<br />all the best to him and take care......<br />i guess i will take this incident as a beautiful memory and bury it deep down....<br />i dont want to comment further on the incident....<br />peeps i am ok...<br />especially to my dearest liling.....<br />i guess you must be very worried about me...<br />but i am really fine...<br />seriously i am mentally prepared for it..<br />hahah...<br />anyway this might also be a blessing in<p:colorscheme colors="#ffffff,#000000,#808080,#000000,#bbe0e3,#333399,#009999,#99cc00"></p:colorscheme> disguise..<br />hahahah... who knows...<br /><br /><br />i was mentally prepared for this..<br />but i never knew that it would happen so fast...<br />perhaps this was only just a dream...<br />a dream so sweet i dont even want to face reality...<br />but the truth is........<br />i am very much trying to run away from it...<br />i dont want to face it nor believe...<br />let time heal me....<br />let nature takes its own course....<br />let this incident subsides....<br />let everything just get back to where there are....<br />dont give me hope when you know that you are going to take them away...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-115172670022098950?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1150890977059236542006-06-21T04:55:00.000-07:002006-06-21T04:59:41.696-07:00<p class="MsoNormal">So many things have happen and some make me really heartbroken while some really struck me.....</p> <p class="MsoNormal">In a relationship, what is the most important thing?</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Is it <span style="color: rgb(204, 153, 255);">TRUST?</span> </p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 0);">LOVE? <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color:yellow;">PASSION? <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">UNDERSTANDING? <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 0);">KNOWING HOW TO CHERISH SOMEONE?<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">ABILITY TO ACCEPT HIS/HER FLAWS OR ACCEPT WHO THEY ARE AND NOT CHANGING THEM?<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""> </span>Everyone have they very personal answer to this question.....</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color:aqua;">Particularly, my answer is understanding and the ability to cherish and treasure someone…<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal">All of them are vital role in maintaining a long and lasting relationship....</p> <p class="MsoNormal">But they must come from both sides.... both parties must play a part...</p> <p class="MsoNormal">If it is only one party doing the job well, he or she will be worn one and eventually leaving the relationship....</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Yes yes yes.... you might think he cherishing u can be seen by waiting for u.....</p> <p class="MsoNormal">But let me tell u… for some people, they look for a partner isnt because he or she loves that particular person but because he or she doesn’t want to be alone....</p> <p class="MsoNormal">I particularly feel tat <span style="color:green;">HE</span> has presented himself in this way...</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Cherishing someone is not but waiting for someone...</p> <p class="MsoNormal">It is by spending quality time on loving, pampering her and making her happy.....</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color:red;">NOT </span>by screaming or shouting her for getting lost when you are the one that gave her the wrong address............</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color:red;">IT IS NOT DONE BY</span> reprimanding or rather throwing temper in order to stop her from doing the things she like when you find it stupid or a waste of money even when she is not even using your money.......</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color:red;">IT IS NOT SHOWN</span> through continuous heated up quarrels.......... </p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color:red;">NOT REVEALED</span> through countless repeated broken promise and mistakes.............</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color:red;">U DO NOT USE VULGARITIES TO REPRIMAND <st1:city st="on"><st1:place st="on">UR</st1:place></st1:city> GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color:red;">U DO NOT PERFORM SUCH ACTS EVEN IN A FIT OF ANGER</span>..............</p> <p class="MsoNormal">this are the basics.....................<br /></p> <p class="MsoNormal">Cherishing is shown through acceptance, understanding and mutual respect............</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Loving someone doesn’t mean that you KNOW how to cherish someone............</p> <p class="MsoNormal">I have already said my peace............. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">If you dont understand, then dont...........</p> <p class="MsoNormal">People out there..............if you feel that I am in the wrong then be it...........</p> <p class="MsoNormal">You never experience the feeling of loving someone so much but he in return perform the above actions................</p> <p class="MsoNormal">You will never know how your love for someone had been reduced or rather away through his heartless language.........</p> <p class="MsoNormal">You never understand how tough it was to go against all odd even being bullied or outcaste from the crowd just to be with that particular person and yet he doesnt cherish you...........</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color:fuchsia;">I guess, I am not so strong to go on.............<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: rgb(153, 0, 255);">To someone out there.........<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: rgb(153, 0, 255);">I have already done what I could to salvage the relationship but to no avail...........<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: rgb(153, 0, 255);">If you or your friends want to hate me, be it....... there is nothing much I have to say or do further...........<o:p></o:p></span></p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-115089097705923654?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1149304981326867172006-06-02T19:32:00.000-07:002006-06-02T20:23:01.343-07:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0059.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0059.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0050.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0050.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) 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href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P4230758.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P4230758.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P5040824.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P5040824.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P5040820.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P5040820.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114930498132686717?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1145528261947265612006-04-20T03:08:00.000-07:002006-04-21T05:52:24.216-07:00<p class="MsoNormal" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);font-family:lucida grande;"><span style=";font-size:130%;" >Wanted so badly to post for e past few days but exhaustion and busyness took over me</span> </p><p class="MsoNormal" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);font-family:lucida grande;"><span style=";font-size:130%;" ><u2:p></u2:p>So many darn things have happened<o:p></o:p></span></p> <span style="font-size:130%;"><u1:p style="font-family: lucida grande; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></u1:p></span> <p class="MsoNormal" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);font-family:lucida grande;"><span style=";font-size:130%;" ><u2:p></u2:p>In fact so many are unlucky<br /></span></p> <span style="font-size:130%;"><u1:p style="font-family: lucida grande; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></u1:p></span> <p class="MsoNormal" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);font-family:lucida grande;"><span style=";font-size:130%;" ><u2:p></u2:p>many stuff I want to vomit it out but I dont know wad is holding me back <o:p></o:p></span></p> <span style="font-size:130%;"><u1:p style="font-family: lucida grande; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></u1:p></span> <p class="MsoNormal" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);font-family:lucida grande;"><span style=";font-size:130%;" ><u2:p></u2:p>But all overall <br /></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);font-family:lucida grande;"><span style=";font-size:130%;" > today was a was special and significant day </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span></p> <span style="font-size:130%;"><u1:p style="font-family: lucida grande; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></u1:p></span> <p class="MsoNormal" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-size:130%;">THE DAY THAT MY CLASS REALLY BONDED</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style=""></span><span style=""><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><b style=""><span style=";font-family:Jokerman;font-size:20;color:red;" >4E1 u rawk man!!!!<o:p></o:p></span></b></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><b style=""><span style=";font-family:Jokerman;font-size:20;color:red;" >Love u ppl sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!<o:p></o:p></span></b></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><b style=""><span style=";font-family:Jokerman;font-size:20;color:red;" >Ms ho if it wasnt for u, there wouldnt be this 4e1 today!!!!!!!!!<o:p></o:p></span></b></p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114552826194726561?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1144498282480922592006-04-08T05:05:00.000-07:002006-04-08T05:11:22.483-07:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/paw%20print%20%282%29.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/paw%20print%20%282%29.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0033.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0033.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0029.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0029.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0042.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0042.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0041.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0041.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114449828248092259?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1144496318970304432006-04-08T04:38:00.000-07:002006-04-08T04:38:38.970-07:00<object width="300" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/n6bgyBN4g-U"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/n6bgyBN4g-U" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="300" height="350"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114449631897030443?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1144335955574593372006-04-06T08:05:00.000-07:002006-04-08T05:01:32.833-07:00<object height="350" width="300"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/vvG_JI7-kVI"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/vvG_JI7-kVI" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" height="350" width="300"></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114433595557459337?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1143290202274442962006-03-25T04:17:00.000-08:002006-03-25T04:37:53.890-08:00<font>our 4e1 baby!<br />my little ying..<br />my baby.... =P<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0034.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0034.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0032.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0032.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0025.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0025.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0028.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0028.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Image%2803%29.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Image%2803%29.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Photo-0023.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Photo-0023.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/23-03-06_1035.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/23-03-06_1035.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Image%2802%29.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Image%2802%29.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/23-03-06_1034.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/23-03-06_1034.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Image.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Image.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/23-03-06_1036.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/23-03-06_1036.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114329020227444296?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1142729839234962282006-03-18T16:54:00.000-08:002006-03-18T16:57:19.233-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">thanks 53 and jun sheng...<br />hahah...<br />shant blog on wad they did..<br />but thanks anyway for "those" words..<br />hahaha.. things have been pretty bad..<br />as u all noe ba..<br />hai.. i will try de..<br />i will try ta do my best lol...<br />thanks for tryin to talk sense into me... thanks<br />dun worrie i will pass it to her de..<br />and dun forget.. a secret is a secret!!!!<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114272983923496228?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1142729462644397192006-03-18T16:08:00.000-08:002006-03-18T16:52:38.813-08:00<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Well.. this holiday have been a hell of a week...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">hai.. Wad can I say...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">report back to school everyday??!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">hai...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Monday - a maths and dance</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Tuesday - a maths and meals on wheels</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Wednesday - chinese</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Thursday - dance</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Friday - queen Elizabeth??!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">hai... dam shag man...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">wad e different btw a holiday and schooling days?</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">the time r "much" more flexible?</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">report school an hour later like 8.30?!!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">ass la... dam tired..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">now is 8.37 am...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">wad m i doing so early on a sunday morning??!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">rite.. i didnt sleep all nite..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">was awaken but a nightmare tat i dun seem to remember..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">hahah.. den called lynn</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">didnt noe she was sleeping.. woke her up</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">sorrie... sorrie</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">den called ming cai they all..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">hear them monkeyin around the phone till 4..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">den started to complete my h/w..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">den did it till now..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">hahah.. i guess my eyes r pretty swollen..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">but cant sleep..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">maybe going down to mirzan's sister's wedding..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">aiyo..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">but luckily i finish an english essay, a maths paper 1</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">but left with a math paper 2 and e math paper 2</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">stuck at the 2nd or 3rd question den stopped..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">ahahaha... suppose to so chinese.. but</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">i was toooooooo lazy ba...</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">this whole week was lyk a nightmare..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">i didnt noe wad i was doing..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">it was as if i was on drugs..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">shant emphaise how stupid i m...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">hahaha.. lame....</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">wadeva it is.. gtg... ciaos...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114272946264439719?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1142661164559554402006-03-17T20:40:00.000-08:002006-03-17T21:55:13.763-08:00thanks people for makin my birthday i wonderful day.. thanks liling first and for most, joshua, jin pei, doyle, lynn, wee and many other.. thank u for stayin by me and cheering me up!! thanks peeps.. love u all to bits!!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P3180644.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P3180644.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P3180645.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P3180645.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20048.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20048.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20049.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20049.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>eyeore from daryl!!!!!!<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P3180640.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P3180640.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>pooh from perry!!!!<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20045.1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20045.2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>juz wad i needed thank jie and kor (shiyao)!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20038.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20038.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /></div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20042.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20042.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20044.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20044.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20040.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20040.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20039.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20039.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />wonderful card and memories of me and liling as well as words from yilei!!<br /></div><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20032.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20032.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>thanks daryl!!!! this made me feel really special!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20033.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20033.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>super cute card done by jodie!!!<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20037.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20037.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> wonderful cards by shamine and jodie!!!<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20035.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20035.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>nothing but words i long to her from shamine!!!<br />thank u.. this mean alot to me!!!<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20030.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20030.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>thanks joshua.. u muz have spent quite so for my birthday!!<br />hahah.. thanks!!<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20025.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20025.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>non other by my blur little ling, liling and wonderful gan jie , yilei<br />thank you.. love it to bits<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20028.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20028.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20026.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20026.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>thanks gan ma!! miss u!<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20022.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20022.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>given by doyle.. thanks<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20020.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20020.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>thanks lewis for this bracelet!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20014.1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20014.1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>thanks kor!! edmund!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20017.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20017.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>lovely necklace by aylmer and jun!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20012.1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20012.1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>beautiful card by mouse pei pei<br /></div><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20011.1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20011.1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>thanks jin pei!!! my beloved daughter..=P<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><br /></span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20010.2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20010.1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20007.1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20007.1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>given by non other than joshua =)<br /></div><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20006.1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20006.1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>me trying to blow out e candles<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20005.2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20005.2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>mom, me , my beloved grandma and jie<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20004.3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20004.3.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>me and e person that spoils me to pieces<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20003.2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20003.2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>me and jie singing my birthday song<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20001.2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Picture%20001.1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />my lovely birthday cake from Dad and Mom!!<br /></div><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114266116455955440?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1141683107505956932006-03-06T14:06:00.000-08:002006-03-06T14:11:47.520-08:00hehe... wake up too early liao..<br />sorrie peeps doze off last night..<br />hahaha... sorrie ar...<br />anyway.. i now bath finish den also change liao<br />onli wait for time to past den go school..<br />i "cant wait" for my frens "SABO"<br />hai.. dunno wad they gonna do to me too...<br />hope they dun make me dirty or wad lol...<br />hai.. pls... dun pour flour on me!!<br />heheheh.. now checkin my friendster at e same time<br />to check out latest birthday testimonies!!<br />haha... =P<br />gtg.. ciaos ^^<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114168310750595693?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1141396825591315892006-03-03T06:05:00.000-08:002006-03-03T06:40:25.640-08:00<a 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alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/purple%20rose.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/purple%20rose.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/rb_012_pink_18roses_50.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/rb_012_pink_18roses_50.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/shars_bqt_top_50.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" 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cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/peach_single_50_.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Mixed%20Roses..jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Mixed%20Roses..jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/pink_single_50_.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/pink_single_50_.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/light%20yellow%20roses.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: 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alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/latte-%20cafe%20rose.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/latte-%20cafe%20rose.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/jurliss_jftp24.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/jurliss_jftp24.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/jurliss_jfsunflower02.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" 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/></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/B_1306.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/B_1306.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Blue%20Triumphator.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Blue%20Triumphator.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/BlueRose_12n12_50.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/BlueRose_12n12_50.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/B_PTussie_25.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/B_PTussie_25.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/16417.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/16417.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/a%20bouquet%20of%20yellow%20roses.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/a%20bouquet%20of%20yellow%20roses.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/16354.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/16354.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/16407.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/16407.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/16428.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/16428.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/16173.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/16173.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/1503.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/1503.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/16104.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/16104.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/1345.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/1345.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/2287.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/2287.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/40ivory_50.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/40ivory_50.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/20%20Stalks%20Of%20Tulips%20With%20Alstromerias.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/20%20Stalks%20Of%20Tulips%20With%20Alstromerias.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/001_Latte4.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/001_Latte4.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/24ivory_50.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/24ivory_50.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114139682559131589?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1141296995753123892006-03-02T02:54:00.000-08:002006-03-02T03:03:26.933-08:00<span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 102); font-family: arial;font-family:webdings;" >finally and thank god!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 102); font-family: arial;font-family:webdings;" >finally CT is over..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 102); font-family: arial;font-family:webdings;" >and tml is friday!!! yeepee!!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 102); font-family: arial;font-family:webdings;" >so relieve..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 102); font-family: arial;font-family:webdings;" >its time to take a rest..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 102); font-family: arial;font-family:webdings;" >my body gonna break down soon...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 102); font-family: arial;font-family:webdings;" >but mid year is lyk 2 months away...<br />finally and thank god!<br />argh......wad e hell la.....</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114129699575312389?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1140246797154015682006-02-17T23:08:00.000-08:002006-02-17T23:16:36.516-08:00i dun wanna abandon him..<br />i realli need ppl to tell me e right words when i need them..<br />but simply they didnt seem to come out of their mouth..<br />now when he is at his lowest,<br />i will not throw him one side and laugh at him..<br />i will not allow him to shut his door from the world..<br />i will talk him out of it..<br />and i noe i will never get to enter the door but i hope tat he will be alrite..<br />i m doing tis is not bcoz of my feelings for him..<br />but i dun wan him to experience wad i went thru..<br />a period where i had to close my doors when no one was there..<br />even when i beg for those words, they still refuse to say it...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-114024679715401568?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1139648117109449412006-02-11T00:34:00.000-08:002006-02-11T00:55:17.136-08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/11.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/11.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>roses<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/is4.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/is4.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulips<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/lily.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/lily.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>lily<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/lily2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/lily2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>lily<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/roses.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/roses.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>roses</div><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/is5.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/is5.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulips<br /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/is4.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/is4.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulips<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/is2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/is2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>roses<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/is3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/is3.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulips<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/is6.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/is6.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulips<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/is1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/is1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulips<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/is.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/is.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulips<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/sunflower.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/sunflower.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>sunflower<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/roses2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/roses2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>rose<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/roses3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/roses3.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>roses<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/pinkish%20tulip.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/pinkish%20tulip.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulip<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/roses4.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/roses4.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>roses<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/pink%20champagne%20rose.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/pink%20champagne%20rose.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>rose<br /><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/purple_flowers.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/purple_flowers.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/images4.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/images4.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>roses<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/sunflower2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/sunflower2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>sunflowers<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/gerbera.3jpg.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/gerbera.3jpg.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>african daisy<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/roses5.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/roses5.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>roses<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/roses7.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/roses7.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>roses<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/gerbera.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/gerbera.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />gerbera<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/roses6.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/roses6.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>rose<br /><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/flowers_013.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/flowers_013.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/gerbera.2jpg.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/gerbera.2jpg.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>gerberas<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/gerbera.1jpg.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/gerbera.1jpg.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>gerberas<br /><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Flowers.10jpg.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Flowers.10jpg.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/flowers_002.1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/flowers_002.1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulips<br /><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Flowers3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Flowers3.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/beaded%20rose.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/beaded%20rose.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>beaded rose<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Flowers2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Flowers2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>gerbers<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/african%20daisy.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/african%20daisy.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />white gerbera<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/9.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/9.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulip<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/daisy.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/daisy.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>sunflower<br /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/7.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/7.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulip<br /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/white%20tulip.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/white%20tulip.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulip<br /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/10.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/10.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>rose<br /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/8.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/8.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulips</div><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/19%20Sunflowers%20Gilroy.1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/19%20Sunflowers%20Gilroy.1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>sunflowers<br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113964811710944941?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1139578962822023602006-02-10T05:11:00.000-08:002006-02-10T05:58:47.573-08:00<p:colorscheme colors="#ffffff,#000000,#808080,#000000,#bbe0e3,#333399,#009999,#99cc00"> </p:colorscheme><div shape="_x0000_s1026" class="O" style=""><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i hate myself..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i reprimand everyone for doing that yet i went to do it..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i hate myself..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i blame everyone yet i went ahead to do it..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">upon seeing ling's eyes..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i saw disappointment, anger and sadness within those tears in her eyes..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she said that whatever she hear from other people she will choose not to believe<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">but if it is from me, she will believe..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she didn't want to believe what Lynn said..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she asked me what have i done...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i told her nothing..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i said umpteen's of nothing but she didn't believe..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she could see that i wasn't right..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she could see that i was trying very hard to suppress them..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">those emotional with laugh and craziness...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she held my wrist...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">no matter how much i struggle, she didn't let go..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i beg down and ask her not to force them out of me...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i didn't want to fall into that state...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i didn't want to cry..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i didn't want to face it...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">but after much persuasions and her look made me gave away...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i told her the truth and broke down and cry...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she hug me and say that everything will be alrite once i cry it all out...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she and lynn will be here with me...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she told me to let all the suppression that has been within me these few months..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">she said that it was fine to let them all out...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i hate to show my emotion but i couldn't control..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">shamine, espall and jia ying was shocked but my sudden out burst..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i broke down on the floor and started crying...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">lynn and ling helped me into the toilet..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i wanted to let it all out..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">but i told them to stop...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i didn't want to think about it...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i hated myself..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i didn't want to go on crying..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i chose to bury them deep down in my heart...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i guess ling could see it..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">they made me promise them that i will never ever repeat that mistake again..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i promised them....<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i had already disappoint ling to much..<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i didn't want to do it further...<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">things have reached such a state that i don't ever know what to do...<br /></span><span style="color:black;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">whatever it should be, let god decide my path...</span><br /></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113957896282202360?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1138677837688228952006-01-30T18:39:00.000-08:002006-01-30T19:27:27.653-08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/valentine%20tulips.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/valentine%20tulips.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>valentine tulip<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/hybrid%20tea%20rose.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/hybrid%20tea%20rose.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>hybrid tea rose<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/images5.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/images5.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>purple rose<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Purple2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Purple2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>purple rose tiara<br /><br /><p:colorscheme colors="#ffffff,#000000,#808080,#000000,#bbe0e3,#333399,#009999,#99cc00"> </p:colorscheme> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Blue%20T1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Blue%20T1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>blue rose tiara<br /><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/images7.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/images7.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/images.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/images.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>champagne rose<br /><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/native_flowers.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/native_flowers.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/41fee779114f9.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/41fee779114f9.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>a bouquet of gerbera<br /><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/pdx_flowers_2003_026.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/pdx_flowers_2003_026.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/purple_flowers.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/purple_flowers.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/impatiens.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/impatiens.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>impatiens<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/hydrangea.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/hydrangea.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>hydrangeas<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/carnations.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/carnations.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>carnation<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/gerbera.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/gerbera.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> gerbera<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/flowers_020.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/flowers_020.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> one of my favourite but i dont know the name<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/yellow%20Flowers.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/yellow%20Flowers.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/gerberas.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/gerberas.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> gerbera<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/pentas.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/pentas.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> pentas<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/flowers_063.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/flowers_063.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>white champagne<p:colorscheme colors="#ffffff,#000000,#808080,#000000,#bbe0e3,#333399,#009999,#99cc00"></p:colorscheme> rose!!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Tulip%2010sm.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Tulip%2010sm.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>a bed of tulip<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Tulip%20Show.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Tulip%20Show.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>tulip<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Zinnia.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Zinnia.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>zinnia<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Flowers.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/Flowers.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> little sunflowers<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/flowers_hibiscus.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/flowers_hibiscus.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> hibiscus<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/flowers_013.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/flowers_013.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> <br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/flowers_002.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/flowers_002.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> tulip<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/flowers_018.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/flowers_018.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> white roses<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/chinese_flowers.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/chinese_flowers.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> <br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/blheart.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/blheart.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> this is called bleeding heart<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/19%20Sunflowers%20Gilroy.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/19%20Sunflowers%20Gilroy.0.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a> sunflowers<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/19%20Sunflowers%20Gilroy.jpg"><br /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113867783768822895?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1138617195521508082006-01-30T02:09:00.000-08:002006-01-30T02:37:44.063-08:00<p:colorscheme colors="#ffffff,#000000,#808080,#000000,#bbe0e3,#333399,#009999,#99cc00"> </p:colorscheme><div shape="_x0000_s1026" class="O"> <div style="">this cny have pretty much turn into a disaster for me..<br />talked to him on cny eve..<br />he confessed that he have someone in mind<br />and tell me that i should love him no more as his heart is with someone else...<br />i wanted to hear it from him so that i will be able to give up..<br />when i heard the message,<br />my heart had shattered into millions pieces...<br />i had to endure it..<br />i didnt want him to hear that i was crying..<br />i didnt want him to know that i love him..<br />i didnt want him to feel that i was lost or sad without him...<br />he wanted me to tell him my problems and why have i changed into such a person..<br />someone whom is so different from what i use to...<br />my laugher have changed into sadness...<br />my smiles have changed into frowns..<br />my world is upside down now...<br />he asked me who is e bastard that have cause that change in me..<br />i told him i dont know...<br />i could tell that he knew it was him..<br />but i convinced him it wasnt him...<br />i didnt want to complicate things as he have given his heart to the girl<br />and has confessed his love for her,<br />i decided to leave him...<br />i hope that i can break away from him...<br />i hope i can do that...<br />but yesterday i quarreled with danial..<br />i was so upset...<br />he was someone i can go to when or where ever i was down..<br />i actually quarreled with him when he was telling me to forget that fucker that caused so much pain on me...<br />he scolded me and said what was the purpose for caring so much for someone who doesnt even care...<br />what is the purpose for being sad..<br />why am i doing such foolish stuff?<br />why cant i just fuck care...<br />he asked...<br />i was speechless..<br />the questions left me crying like a idiot...<br />i want to apologies to him for my foolish acts..<br />sorry danial...<br />thank u for being there when i needed u..<br />thanks..=) </div> </div><br />i will try to be like before but i dont think i can ever be...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113861719552150808?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1138358667584332462006-01-27T02:30:00.000-08:002006-01-27T03:51:37.940-08:00todAy was a disaster...<br />many things had cropped up...<br />too many things to handle...<br />when i was in e hall,<br />i was running around lyk a clown...<br />from e lion dance members to mei wei, to jin pei, to farhana den finally i stayed there<br />and i saw him..<br />he was in front of ming cao...<br />saw tat he was happy, i became relief...<br />wanted very much to talk to him but dunno how...<br />miss him so much.. hai..<br />jin fai ask me y i<p:colorscheme colors="#ffffff,#000000,#808080,#000000,#bbe0e3,#333399,#009999,#99cc00"></p:colorscheme> initated e break up<br />i didnt.. i called out for a time out but he say tat time-out will eventually led<br />to a break up so wad is e difference btw now and later?.<br />he ask if i will accept him back, i hesitated..<br />i neva though of this question..<br />he already have someone in mind..<br />never will i tink tat he will cone back to me..<br />i m a loser..<br />when walkin home, saw him and his frenz<br />wanted veri much to go there to talk to him<br />but upon seeing his reaction to my approach,<br />i decided to leave...<br />i hate myself<br />and the things happen...<br />i m tryin very hard to forget myself and the pain...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113835866758433246?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1138109638823049452006-01-24T05:29:00.000-08:002006-01-24T05:33:58.846-08:00wad can i do?<br />wad muz i do?<br />wad should i do?<br />i cant sms, call or talk to him..<br />everyday i try my very best to avoid him..<br />i try not to bang into him...<br />so tat he will be better off...<br />but i juz cant help worrying..<br />tml is his big day..<br />i cant tell him to take care...<br />i cant tell him to inform me abt the lastest new..<br />i cant do anything..<br />every night, waking up in cold sweat due to nightmares<br />so afraid of those might happen..<br />so afraid and tired of those dreams...<br />wad should i do?<br />wad can i do?<br />can someone tell me? pls..<br />i juz hope tat he is fine...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113810963882304945?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1137757669931336602006-01-20T03:38:00.000-08:002006-01-20T03:56:40.943-08:00for e past few days...or rather week...<br />i have been dam troubled lately..<br />things have been real bad for me...<br />standing under the rain,<br />i wonder if those were rain or tears running down my face...<br />was it the rain tat made me cry or was it him?<br />why is he doing this?<br />this is lyk history repeatin itself...<br />i hate to go thru this again...<br />he say tat he is returnin wad others have given him...<br />he call it pain...<br />but to me it seem tat he is doing it to get rid of me..<br />since he has found someone den i will let go...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113775766993133660?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1137168842167999622006-01-13T07:11:00.000-08:002006-01-19T06:47:31.850-08:00<p class="MsoNormal"> </p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">As I try very hard to survive each day,<br />he comes back, after abandoning me, and asks for a second chance...<br />I was hurt...<br />I have yet to be recovered but now...<br />he has asked for a second chance to make things right…<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">How is he going to do that?<br />What is he going to do...?<br />I don’t know...so many questions yet so little answers...<br />it has been on my mind for days…<br />many of my brain cells have died...<br />I have yet to come up with an answer till today...<br />I finally figure out what I want...<br />I finally figure out wad I am actually feeling...<br />I am now able to put them into words...<br />I am too dependent on this special wall in my life that<br />I actually forgotten how to survive without it...<br />but one day, it actually left me...<br />it abandon me at this deserted place...<br />I fell into a pretty bad state...<br />I fell quite badly...<br />I got hurt...<br />and while I have to learn to depend on my own...<br />friends like liling, jin pei, yilei and hui xuan beside me supporting me<br />made my days a little easier...<br />but nevertheless, I still had to pass through each day<br />while I m trying to get use to life without it,<br />it comes running back to me....<br />asking for a second chance...<br />I was happy that it came back but....<br />I was still recovering from fall, the incident, the pain<br />now... All of a sudden<br />it say tat it wasn’t at the right state of mind...<br />it was upset of the stuff I did so it did something very wrong...<br />hoping tat I could give him a second chance,<br />it promise me tat he will try to make things right...<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">He said that it will make it up to me…<br />many people told me to accept it…<br />Accept its apologies for leaving...<br />forgive it for the mistakes it have committed...<br />I was very touched for the words it said...<br />but... nevertheless I know that I can’t really return to e past...<br />I m not able to trust it after that event...<br />upon this incident, I find tat I have lost e confident and trust of it<br />I have learn that trusting someone too much is wrong...<br />I have yet to walk out of the past shadows in my life...<br />How can I trust it when I don’t even trust myself that I can walk out of these shadows?<br />I am not even assured that I will be able to be like before...<br />how can I accept it when there are so many obstacles?<br />If we rush into getting a relationship now, both parties will end up in sorrows<br />I need someone tat I like from e bottom of my heart...<br />I need someone tat actually catches my attention...<br />someone that like me for who I am...<br />someone whom I have chemistry with...<br />someone that I and him is connected through such special feelings<br />I have yet to know such person<br />yes... I have actually like it...<br />But wad happened had killed all e trust in me...<br />it had killed another me...<br />i have learnt another lesson...<br />i have got to know wad I wanted...<br />but learnt is an issue getting over it is another problem...<br />after telling ling and pat how i feel,<br />they supported my decision..<br />They told me to follow my heart...<br />I know that many people will condemn me for making tat decision...<br />telling me to give him a chance after that long wait but...<br />all these have been broken when those happened<br />doesnt mean that a person that have loved u for half a year u have gotta accept him..<br />Den should I accept those tom, dick and Harry tat had loved me for 10yrs??<br />That is not love...<br />it called sympathy...<br />I don’t want to do tat to him...<br />moreover i m not ready to be in a relationship...<br />i m afraid of commitments...<br />and i have been slacking all these years and this is the year i cannot waste because i simply cannot afford to...<br />so... this my decision... <o:p></o:p></span></p> <span style=""><span style="font-size:100%;">I hope that this is best for both of us…<br /></span> <!--[if !supportLineBreakNewLine]--><br /><!--[endif]--></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113716884216799962?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1136550688484215842006-01-06T04:26:00.000-08:002006-01-06T04:31:28.500-08:00i finally recovered my password..<br />all credit is to gone to nilah...<br />it was her who taught me to check my junk mail...<br />tat was where i retrieved my password...<br />recently lotsa things have be going on and on...<br />hai... dunno wad to...<br />i have lost e opportunity<br />wad can i do..<br />i have to blame myself for tat...<br />i have to face e consequences...<br />now i m lyk a livin corpse now.. hai<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113655068848421584?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1132999499455660772005-11-26T01:15:00.000-08:002005-11-26T03:40:02.993-08:00many ppl have been askin me<br />wad realli occurred tat nite...<br />e nite which i almost had to shorten my finger...<br />to others it may seem nothin to u<br />but tis has brought my family closer...<br />it was broken when i misplace my finger near e door<br />my dad and sis immediately brought me to e hospital<br />my dad brought me to tan tock seng (tts)<br />we had to attend to some "procedures "<br />and they juz merely wrapped my finger wif some goss and tap it<br />den they put me on a wheelchair...<br />they pushed me to tis place i have no idea where is it<br />den put me on e bed...<br />they pushed me to see e doctor...<br />e doctor gave me 2 freakin pain injection to numb e pain..<br />den they pushed me to a place where e patients<br />are either waitin to be warded, discharged or to be pushed into the operatin threate..<br />i was one of those waitin to be pushed into the ot..<br />i was so cold e nurse had to give me 4 blankets..<br />den they send me for x-ray<br />e nurse asked a dam stupid question la<br />can u sign on tis document?!<br />i was lyk i jus broke a finger on my right hand la<br />den i ask if figer print was ok<br />den u pressed my thumb against e paper<br />i had to wait for lyk 6 hours after my last meal to be able to enter e ot..<br />after 3 hours of waitin...<br />areas beside my finger had been flooded wif blood<br />e bed, e clothes, e goss<br />it was dam gross lyk i broke all my fingers...<br />after waitin again,i was send to another room<br />my dad and my sis stood beside me<br />after around 2 to 3 hours...<br />e doctor came and check my finger...<br />they told us to be prepared tat they might have to shorten e finger as it had been chipped off quite badly...<br />for e first time, i cried..<br />i burst into tear..<br />i could accept the finger tat they wanted to cut of e broken part<br />while i was still cried in veri emotional state,<br />they pushed me into the ot..<br />i was shiverin when i entered the threate...<br />another doctor was there..<br />he seemed experienced....<br />he took a look at my wound and told me they gonna stitch up my finger<br />i was lyk dam stunned...<br />den e stupid doctor tat wanna shorten my finger entered<br />e doctor told her to stitch my finger back...<br />she wads lyk are u sure..<br />it is quite badly chipped off...<br />felt lyk killin her at tat point of time...<br />argh.. soooo pissed wif her at tat point of time...<br />but she den warned my dad tat there is a possibility tat even though they stitch my finger back, e broken part may die off and i will have to cut off e broken part eventually...<br />they stitched my finger back and wrapped a finger lyk a huge hotdog<br />i den went home after spendin 8 hours in the hospital<br />my mom was terrified by tis incident...<br />e next day, she brought me to mount elizabeth...<br />e doctor say it was ok...<br />as there was good blood circulation...<br />dam pissed when e tts doctor when she wanted to shorten my finger..<br />they gonna let my wound heal and it will take abt 2 weeks<br />den they gonna make arrangement to fix my bone<br />now.. its better and e doctor is gonna take out e stitch next week..<br />but as for e bone i will take around a month to grow back...<br />hope tat my finger will recover soon as i have loads of homework yet to be done!!!!! will blog again.. ciaos =P<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113299949945566077?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1132572468081942132005-11-21T03:13:00.000-08:002005-11-21T03:27:48.096-08:00apologisin for not bloggin...<br />i have recently broke one of my finger...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113257246808194213?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1130073059100546532005-10-23T06:10:00.001-07:002005-10-23T06:10:59.106-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/DSCF2203.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/DSCF2203.jpg'></a><br />bi zhen, mrs tan and farhanah&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' 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src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113007294613255712?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1130059712755258602005-10-23T02:21:00.000-07:002005-10-23T02:28:32.763-07:00feel kinda feel recently....<br />probably its bcoz it is after exams..<br />durin e exam period really stress me out...<br />i nearly went crazy..<br />haha.. i m exaggerating ...<br />haha... really slack lyk shit recently..<br />reach home either sleep or watch tv...<br />dunno y keep feeling tired recently..<br />perharps it is e aftermath of the exams<br />kinda down wif flu, headache and backache..<br />veri frustratin... hahaha<br />nah...lets not tink abt those stuff...<br />going to OBS kinda lookin forward to it..<br />hehe... gtg.. ciao...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-113005971275525860?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129860537382145762005-10-20T19:08:00.002-07:002005-10-20T19:08:57.386-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/17837985051957l.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/17837985051957l.jpg'></a><br />eileen and fren&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112986053738214576?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129860523044435992005-10-20T19:08:00.001-07:002005-10-20T19:08:43.050-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/17837769712267l.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/17837769712267l.jpg'></a><br />eileen and fren&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112986052304443599?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129860505564038082005-10-20T19:08:00.000-07:002005-10-20T19:08:25.570-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/17837821958333l.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/17837821958333l.jpg'></a><br />v3 and v7&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112986050556403808?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859622568198442005-10-20T18:53:00.003-07:002005-10-20T18:53:42.576-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/17838981957249l.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/17838981957249l.jpg'></a><br /> &nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985962256819844?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859616161102622005-10-20T18:53:00.002-07:002005-10-20T18:53:36.160-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/17836074713029l.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/17836074713029l.jpg'></a><br />eileen and angie&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985961616110262?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859603207845372005-10-20T18:53:00.001-07:002005-10-20T18:53:23.206-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/17844007916408l.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/17844007916408l.jpg'></a><br />felle, watson and filzah&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985960320784537?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859585793731952005-10-20T18:53:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:53:05.793-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/17793689731587l.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/17793689731587l.jpg'></a><br />felle and angie&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985958579373195?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859569718174762005-10-20T18:52:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:52:49.723-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/17793744663439l.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/17793744663439l.jpg'></a><br />mdm rozainah's fans&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985956971817476?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859437490699082005-10-20T18:50:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:50:37.496-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20012.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20012.jpg'></a><br />5n1&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985943749069908?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859382703334752005-10-20T18:49:00.002-07:002005-10-20T18:49:42.703-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20009.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20009.jpg'></a><br />Ms Ftp&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985938270333475?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859373170072952005-10-20T18:49:00.001-07:002005-10-20T18:49:33.176-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20008.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20008.jpg'></a><br />waitin for the results&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985937317007295?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859350362106372005-10-20T18:49:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:49:10.366-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20007.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20007.jpg'></a><br />stunning&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985935036210637?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859330040817532005-10-20T18:48:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:48:50.046-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20006.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20006.jpg'></a><br />dont they look gorgeous &nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985933004081753?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859262740185992005-10-20T18:47:00.002-07:002005-10-20T18:47:42.746-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20005.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20005.jpg'></a><br />final 5 norminates for Ms ftp&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985926274018599?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859239480581612005-10-20T18:47:00.001-07:002005-10-20T18:47:19.493-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20004.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20004.jpg'></a><br />final 5 norminates&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985923948058161?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859223215777832005-10-20T18:47:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:47:03.223-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20003.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20003.jpg'></a><br />nominates for Mr ftp&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985922321577783?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129859007547830922005-10-20T18:43:00.002-07:002005-10-20T18:43:27.553-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20002.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20002.jpg'></a><br />may ee and ling&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985900754783092?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858995697485012005-10-20T18:43:00.001-07:002005-10-20T18:43:15.710-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20035.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20035.jpg'></a><br />indo gang&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985899569748501?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858987353043372005-10-20T18:43:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:43:07.360-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20033.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20033.jpg'></a><br />eugene wad r u doing??!&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985898735304337?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858972137756342005-10-20T18:42:00.001-07:002005-10-20T18:42:52.146-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20034.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20034.jpg'></a><br />teachers and samuel.. wad is he doing there?&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985897213775634?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858948979871742005-10-20T18:42:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:42:28.980-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20032.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20032.jpg'></a><br />e crew b4 the scenes&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985894897987174?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858898240231402005-10-20T18:41:00.001-07:002005-10-20T18:41:38.240-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20031.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20031.jpg'></a><br />beautiful couple&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985889824023140?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858874117684782005-10-20T18:41:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:41:14.123-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20030.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20030.jpg'></a><br />brothers??&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985887411768478?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858836148243922005-10-20T18:40:00.002-07:002005-10-20T18:40:36.153-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20028.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20028.jpg'></a><br />no comments&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985883614824392?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858820071308182005-10-20T18:40:00.001-07:002005-10-20T18:40:20.080-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20027.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20027.jpg'></a><br />wild gang&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985882007130818?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858803578786482005-10-20T18:40:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:40:03.583-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20026.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20026.jpg'></a><br />sweet couple&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985880357878648?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858776633906262005-10-20T18:39:00.001-07:002005-10-20T18:39:36.633-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20025.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20025.jpg'></a><br /> &nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985877663390626?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858745738569012005-10-20T18:39:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:39:05.743-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20023.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20023.jpg'></a><br />newly wedds&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985874573856901?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858688077194452005-10-20T18:38:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:38:08.083-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20021.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20021.jpg'></a><br />4e3&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' 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/></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858648002044902005-10-20T18:37:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:37:28.006-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20018.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20018.jpg'></a><br /> &nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985864800204490?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858606416165042005-10-20T18:36:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:36:46.420-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/Picture%20016.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/Picture%20016.jpg'></a><br />black angels&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985860641616504?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129858533890310102005-10-20T18:35:00.000-07:002005-10-20T18:35:33.896-07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/640/17837183459891l.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/93/8401/320/17837183459891l.jpg'></a><br />beautiful indo gerls&nbsp;<a href='http://picasa.google.com/blogger/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbp.gif' alt='Posted by Picasa' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112985853389031010?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1129020299071592222005-10-11T01:41:00.001-07:002005-10-11T01:50:23.706-07:00juz when i thought i could trust u..<br />whether a not as a good friend or even<br />an ordinary friend....<br />wad e fuck... i told u everthing..<br />u said those shit...<br />i m not fated to be ur fren...<br />she is always there to do some shit<br />used me to get close to u...<br />wad m i?? something to be used???!!<br />i hate her, u and myself...<br />u for lying...<br />me for trustin u....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112902029907159222?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1127482994048425102005-09-23T06:40:00.000-07:002005-09-23T06:43:14.056-07:00m i recovering?<br />or m i getting worst?<br />be it mentally or physically..<br />i hate myself...<br />y cant it stop..<br />it juz adds on.. and on...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112748299404842510?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1125504106024070712005-08-31T08:46:00.000-07:002005-08-31T09:01:46.036-07:00teacher's day programme...<br />have been plannin tis wif 6 peeps..<br />aimah, wee gee, jahafar, wei jie, lynn and carmen<br />haha... had fun workin wif them..<br />although many things crop up todae<br />but overall, everythin turned out really well..<br />was veri veri veri happy<br />tat the teachers enjoyed the concert<br />we have onli 2 rehearsals<br />the chairman didnt turn up...<br />until today.. minutes b4 the concert..<br />everythin was in chaos..<br />there were shortage of ppl<br />and the students werent given the que<br />haiz... nevermind!!!<br />overall... it turned out well...<br />hehe... dam happy!!!!<br />happy tat everythin turmed out well...<br />its lyk a burder has been taken off my shoulder!!!<br />haha... sooooooooooooo happy<br />but soooooooooooo tired...<br />friday still got debrief.. so tiring..<br />nvm.. our debrief will be quite fun i tink..<br />hehe.. gtg .... ciaoz..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112550410602407071?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1125502253470527322005-08-31T08:18:00.001-07:002005-08-31T08:41:06.833-07:00recently i have been quite close wif this guy..<br />he has been veri sweet to me...<br />i noe tat he lyk me for some time le..<br />it was during camp tat i feel close to him..<br />but we arent together....<br />bcoz i was preparing foe the teacher's day programme,<br />he accompany e whole time..<br />i feel really pampered when i m wif him..<br />but....<br />i feel tat recently,<br />we have been too close...<br />i m those kind of gerls tat needs to be alone...<br />i dun guys to be too sticky to me...<br />i will feel veri uncomfortable..<br />i noe u will be reading these<br />and i wanna tell u...<br />we need to take things slow..<br />we r still frens...<br />u dun have to be so protective over me...<br />i tink tat we need to have a distance btw us<br />we r movin too fast..<br />i hope tat u can understand wad i feelin<br />and why i m tellin u tis...<br />i noe u will feel veri hurt but i wan u to noe tis..<br />i m not veri ready to enter into a relationship<br />i hope u can understand...<br />i m not ready to have commitments...<br />i cant give u or promise u anythin..<br />hope u will understand...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112550225347052732?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1125501364669849972005-08-31T08:08:00.000-07:002005-08-31T08:16:04.670-07:00after tellin them those stuff,<br />i felt better...<br />they treated me better...<br />feel happy tat our friendship wun be gone juz lyk tat...<br />haha...<br />gtg... ciao..=P<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112550136466984997?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1124474751113316412005-08-19T11:02:00.000-07:002005-08-31T08:04:27.090-07:00wads wrong wif me?<br />wad have i been doing?<br />haven been blogging...<br />if u read my previous entry<br />u will understand y...<br />have been busy wif many stuff<br />e teacher's day programme, service<br />common tests, dance and my personal stuff..<br />dam tired recently but cannot fall asleep till late night...<br />wad is happenin...<br />izit me?<br />u? her? him?<br />or perharps them?<br />have been askin myself these questions...<br />tinkin of e past and comparin it wif the present<br />things have changed...<br />ppl do change...<br />drastic changes occur every now and den..<br />after helpin u ppl,<br />u tend to take things for granted...<br />u got wan u wanted and feel happy now...<br />how the fuck did u repay me?<br />by allowin our friendship to fade<br />well done.. tats wad i can say..<br />u enjoy the good times wif my help<br />when u encounter problems, i was there<br />i consoled u, encouraged u<br />but when i need a fren, u went away<br />u chucked me one side lyk a stranger.<br />i thought tat we were frens..<br />i guess i was wrong...<br />things dun appear as was it is..<br />they may appear to be ur frens<br />but when u need them, where are they?<br />haiz... dam tired..<br />dunno wad to do...<br />hope tat things wun be better<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112447475111331641?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1122992208489103362005-08-02T07:14:00.000-07:002005-08-06T22:53:18.536-07:00start to hate blogging...<br />weneva i blog, i will tink of many stuff..<br />especially him...<br />is hard to forget someone...<br />i really feel helpless at times...<br />no one can help me overcome these<br />but myself....<br />he doesnt lyk me anymore...<br />he has a new gerlfriend...<br />hope tt he is happy now...<br />happy for him and wishes he all e best..<br />but i cant stop my heart from aching...<br />it is bleeding .....<br />the wound is getting deeper each time...<br />i noe tt time is e best solution to everything<br />but when will this every end?<br />probably a long time...<br />i also dunno...<br />i m tryin vey hard to face reality...<br />but it is dificult...<br />when i do certain things<br />or when others talk abt a certain issue<br />flashes of the past run thru my mind...<br />i dunno how to describe the feelin<br />or rather the pain...<br />it juz worsen my condition..<br />my frenz ask me to accept other ppl<br />maybe e pain will lessen..<br />but izit fair to use to them?<br />m i suppose to use them to forget the pain?<br />it is lyk dam selfish la...<br />i have rejected them...<br />they have done alot for me..<br />i dun wanna hurt them further...<br />it is not fair for them..<br />i will only accept them when i m ready<br />when i have get over this issue<br />or when i have healed...<br />if u r readin this, i juz wanna thank ya<br />wheneva i m sad, u r there to make me laugh<br />but i really cant accept anyone...<br />i m sorrie...mickey mouse...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112299220848910336?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1121583523563327592005-07-16T23:42:00.000-07:002005-07-16T23:58:43.573-07:00something is wrong...<br />i can sense it...<br />my sis says tat i visit her blog<br />tats y she cant post her exam results...<br />huh?<br />we use to be so close...<br />we tell each other everythin..<br />and its lyk we can interpret<br />each other's minds<br />now... its lyk she hides lotsa things from me<br />although my family is finally back together<br />but me and my sis are lyk driftin apart<br />i dunno wad ta do..<br />it really breaks my heart....<br />although these days we have<br />some tiffs, but i dun tink these<br />can affect our relationship...<br />i dunno la<br />after goin thru so much in skool<br />i m mentally &amp; physically tired<br />with addition problems wif my sis<br />i really dunno wad ta do...<br />i really wan her to read e compo<br />its abt her and e things she do<br />tat i m proud of....<br />i m really happy to have her as my sister<br />i really hope tat things will turn out better<br />anyway... gtg and prepare for tuition<br />byes<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112158352356332759?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1121516329823208672005-07-16T05:18:00.000-07:002005-07-16T05:20:55.500-07:00<table><tbody><tr><td valign="top"><h2></a>Guys 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lol...<br />i noe tat i have been troubling him alot..<br />soorie arh.. den i always bully him..<br />sorrie eh....dun angry hor...<br />veri grateful tat i had<br />liling to accompany me<br />thru out tis week...<br />i noe u have lotsa problems too..<br />but dun worry<br />i will still be there wheneva ya need me ok..<br />lurva ya... thanks u for everything<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112143562971680556?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1120828065057077612005-07-08T05:34:00.000-07:002005-07-09T00:26:54.076-07:00thoughts...<br />after talkin to tim yesterdae<br />(my jie's exboyfriend)<br />made me go into deep thoughts..<br />i ask him wad should i do..<br />he told me to make no decision..<br />or in other words...<br />dun choose anyone...<br />let nature takes its place..<br />if i m fated to be wif any1 of them<br />den i will be..<br />i will hurt any of them if i were<br />to make a decision...<br />so y not remain as friends<br />yet love one another...<br />i dun have to express<br />my feelins to any of them...<br />in tis way...<br />i dun have ta feel so pressurized...<br />and i will not hurt any1<br />although alone can be lonely<br />at times but there lotsa<br />advantages being alone<br />u have more freedom,<br />more time to spent wif ur friends<br />u can do wadeva ya wan..<br />no restrictions at all..<br />but can all tis defeat love?<br />i dun tink so..<br />hai... i dunno la...<br />sound so crappy all...<br />i'll end here ba...<br />buaiz<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112082806505707761?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1120743566082572512005-07-07T06:33:00.000-07:002005-07-07T06:39:26.093-07:00wad to do...<br />i have write him a letter...<br />but i heard from his friend<br />tat he tio tai zi again...<br />hai....<br />wad happen again...<br />i guess i wun be gettin<br />any responds from him..<br />he cant even get e letter..<br />wad ta do...<br />tis is fate...<br />we r not fated to be together<br />den let it be..<br />i have tried...<br />theres nothin i can do le...<br />haha...<br />hope for e best ba...<br />i need to keep myself<br />happy coz i still need<br />ta help danial solve his problem...<br />anyway..<br />gtg can le.. buaiz=P<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112074356608257251?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1120575601536910212005-07-04T07:50:00.000-07:002005-07-06T04:45:03.610-07:00confused....<br />wad should i do...<br />should i tell him abt it...<br />shamine say i should...<br />if not it will not be fair<br />for him as he dunnno<br />wad i wan from him rite..<br />hai... but i wanna see<br />if he has any initiative...<br />or in other words..<br />let nature takes its place..<br />if i and him is meant to be<br />den we will be...<br />if not wadeva i do is useless...<br />i m so frustrated over it...<br />its lyk so argh..<br />i dunno how to express<br />wad i m actually feelin now..<br />but i now tat it is slowly<br />tearin me apart...<br />i face breathin difficulties once again...<br />hai...<br />maybe i should glet him noe...<br />but i m veri afraid tat<br />i will hurt any of them...<br />especially him...<br />i dun wan him to be<br />injure while walkin tis path<br />but i still hurt him on e way...<br />i m so gulity lol...<br />hai...<br />life is lyk tat...<br />wad can i do...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112057560153691021?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1120466678303022172005-07-04T01:15:00.000-07:002005-07-04T01:47:19.843-07:00i week...<br />tats all i give u..<br />is up to u to do wadeva<br />u wan to do within e week...<br />either to make things rite or wad...<br />i m tired...<br />if u still act lyk nothin<br />has happened....<br />den... i juz have to tell u tat<br />its over...<br />its over...<br />tis will be e last time....<br />even if ur friends beg me...<br />i m tired of givin u e chance...<br />i m tired of u lyin<br />and cheatin...<br />i m so sick of it...<br />enough is enough...<br />tats a limit to one's patience<br />wad u have done<br />has already cross e boundery..<br />when e week is over...<br />im done wif it..<br />so r u...<br />we will not have any<br />fuckin connections wif u..<br />i hope tat u die juz rite b4 me...<br />i hope tat tis will juz be over<br />and done wif it....<br />dam vexed over tis shit...<br />i cant stop tis thing from happenin<br />den i shall stop tis b4 its drags on...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112046667830302217?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1120378618134005292005-07-03T00:33:00.000-07:002005-07-03T01:16:58.166-07:00tis r some of e pics<br />we took on suday...<br />hehe=P<br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P1010060.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P1010060.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P10100531.JPG"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P10100531.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P1010055.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P1010055.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P10100521.JPG"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P10100521.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P10100291.JPG" border="0" /><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/P1010031.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/320/P1010031.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112037861813400529?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1120232944900360462005-07-01T01:23:00.000-07:002005-07-01T09:12:39.803-07:00leSson leaRnt...<br />i have got to realize<span style="color:#ff0000;"> a couple of stuff</span> todae....<br />things have change and<br />so have i....<br />walkin down e staircase with jos<br />den suddenly he rushed up...<br />our eyes meet...<br />i dunno how to explain<br />e situation in detail...<br />everythin juz happened in seconds...<br />i duno wad to do<br />but juz to stare at his eyes...<br />asked him wen he going back...<br />den stare at his eyes for a few seconds<br />and walk away....<br />some stuff ran thru my mind<br />when i stared into his eyes...<br />thought alot in e afternoon..<br />but wen ta sleep after tinkin some time<br />coz not feelin veri well...<br />sort of a minor fever...<br />woke up and replied some msg...<br />still tinkin alot of stuff rite now...<br />veri confused and frustrated...<br />have alot of questions in my mind...<br />i wanna ask him<br />but it seems lyk forever to even have a<br />serious conversation wif him...<br />i dunno wad i feel now...<br />i dunno wad to do either...<br />every1 has been tryin to tell<br />me to forget e past<br />and enjoy e present..<br />i hope tat i can do...<br />anywae gtg off now..<br />byes<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><blockquote></blockquote><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112023294490036046?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1120031817564566912005-06-29T00:33:00.000-07:002005-06-29T01:01:21.353-07:00he's back...<br />i have lotsa mixed feelin when<br />i first saw his presence in e canteen...<br />lots of stuff went thru my mind...<br />i dunno if i still lurva him..<br />i dunno wad to do..<br />his friend had told me some stuff..<br />r they all lies?<br />r they not real...<br />perharps tat said tat juz<br />to make me wait for him...<br />i dunno....<br />things have been rather difficult for me...<br />had to cope wif skool work....<br />and many other problems...<br />i m tired...<br />is already up to him...<br />if wad ur friend said is true....<br />i m dam stressed now...<br />veri tired le...<br />u make mi feel dam confused...<br />u dun even seem to care abt anythingl...<br />i dunno if ur friend has told u e things..<br />even if u dun know abt it...<br />y do u have to act lyk tat...<br />maybe tis is u...<br />tis is e real u....<br />it is juz me who is juz so stupid<br />to believe u and ur friends...<br />to believe tat there is a good side of u...<br />every1 has been tellin me<br />to be carefull and stuff...<br />i still choose to believe u<br />and allow myself to get hurt...<br />well... if this is wad u actually wan,<br />den be it...<br />let thing be tis way...<br />i will not care abt u animore...<br />i still wrote u a stupid letter<br />askin how u have been....<br />i m so stupid mam...<br />i dunno y e hell i wrote tat man....<br />i dunno...<br />i m dam confused....<br />when u walked pass,<br />u pretend to not see my presence<br />u didnt even wave or say hi...<br />at e veri least..<br />u could at least look at my direction<br />to keep me a signal or somethin..<br />u didnt...<br />u did nothin...<br />perharps i realli still lurva u..<br />but e things tat u have done<br />had dried my lurva for u...<br />wad is gonna will neva return...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-112003181756456691?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1119786594062987992005-06-26T04:16:00.000-07:002005-06-26T04:50:31.673-07:00c.l.a.s.s<br />u ppl rawk!<br />todae e c.l.a.s.s ppl, mentors and trainers<br />meet up at pasir ris beach<br />we had a load of fun man!<br />first we played passin parcel...<br />haha...i knew every forfit<br />coz i plan everything...hahah=P<br />seein every1 do e funni forit<br />makes mi laugh..haha<br />jonathan acted lyk a cow...<br />amos pole dance...oh man...<br />hahahaha...<br />liling even got it recorded!<br />i laughed my butt out...<br />den...they had 1/2 of free time<br />some when to cycle and some played freebee...<br />while me and liling set up<br />some of e station games<br />they had to blow flour out of a pail<br />to eat e marshmarlow..<br />peel and eat e orange as fast as possible<br />played e straw game<br />water bomb...<br />swim in e sea for a few hours<br />while swimmin, we played water bomb<br />dam fun..<br />pulled ppl down e water..<br />hahah=P<br />den we played water wresting...<br />i sat on liling's shoulder..<br />competed wif nelson while he sat on<br />russel's shoulder....<br />haha.. guess wad?<br />i won!!!!<br />hehehee..<br />den.. we went ta wash up...<br />e guys didnt have shampoo so<br />they juz r rinsed their body...<br />den.. can see there r flour on their hair<br />hahaha...<br />anyway gtg now...<br />wait till i received e photos from joshua<br />and perry den i post it ok..<br />keep rawkin ppl...<br />skool startin tml...<br />kinda sian lol<br />anyway buai...<br />lurva ya...muacks!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111978659406298799?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1119616745093017482005-06-24T05:29:00.000-07:002005-06-24T05:39:05.100-07:00tis r some of e pics tat<br />we took..hehe =P<br />(i look spastic)<br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%200281.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/200/Picture%20028.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20022.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/200/Picture%20022.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%200291.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/200/Picture%20029.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20025.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/200/Picture%20025.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%20017.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/200/Picture%20017.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%200231.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/200/Picture%20023.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%200151.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/200/Picture%20015.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/1600/Picture%200033.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/844/1037/200/Picture%200031.jpg" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111961674509301748?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1119546777196486972005-06-23T09:49:00.000-07:002005-06-23T10:12:57.203-07:00hey..<br />looks lyk its been some time since<br />i have been bloggin decently..<br />hahaha..crap..<br />anyway...i went ta meet cynthia todae<br />met her at taka..<br />while walkin there i saw<br />tim and ziyan...<br />tat dumb ass is so freakin gay lol..<br />crack a few lame jokes wif him<br />and met up wif cynthia..<br />she realli treats me as her young sis<br />she dotes me..<br />once in a while she will ask me<br />out for dinner or to hang out<br />to check how m i doing...<br />isnt tat nice?...<br />went ta eat dinner and did some<br />window shopping...<br />she and i talked a lot..<br />we talked on relationships,<br />studies, kinship etc...<br />feel veri comfortable when she around...<br />merely pours out everything to her..<br />hahaha.....<br />den we talk abt status in a relationship..<br />i dun tink tat status in a relationship<br />is ver important.....<br />as long u can get along<br />with each other..<br />feel comfortable when every other..<br />lurve each other...<br />alothough u r not a couple<br />but u noe tat he loves u..<br />isnt tat enough?<br />isnt tat wad couples wan..<br />perharp not havin a status<br />is better tat havin status..<br />u have to care wad ppl tink and stuff..<br />if u do not own tat status,<br />u can do things freely...<br />so i rather not enter into a relationship<br />but at e same time i can enjoy<br />begin pammered and lurve..<br />isnt tat wonderful?<br />anyway its late now..<br />i gtg and sleep le..<br />nitez pple..<br />lurve ya...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111954677719648697?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1119366564526569892005-06-21T08:04:00.000-07:002005-06-21T08:09:24.530-07:00vIruS!!!<br />my com got virus!<br />so sick lol..<br />every1 seems to have virus in their com..<br />wa kao lol...<br />e com has been down for<br />a few days le..<br />near to a week...<br />kinda couldnt control e feelin<br />of not usin e com...<br />so addicted to it...<br />now is alot of stupid pop up..<br />so fuckin irritatin la..<br />every once in a while<br />they will appear...<br />sick blastard who invented pop up..<br />wanna kill them..<br />asshole..<br />gtg now..<br />bye<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111936656452656989?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1118592877414571422005-06-12T09:07:00.000-07:002005-06-12T09:16:21.776-07:00dam bored!!!<br />i am so dam bored la....<br />durin e holidays...<br />i either slack at home...<br />or i go to skool....<br />i practically have no life...<br />i juz sit infront of e tv everyday..<br />i do nothin but watch e tv...<br />i dunno wad ta do lol..<br />my sis keeps hoggin on to e com...<br />my tv in e livin rm is down..<br />my mom is watchin tv in her rm...<br />and my granny hogs onto e phone..<br />wa kao...<br />wad is life man?<br />i practically stare into space......<br />argh... so fuckin bored...<br />dunno wad ta do lol...<br />wadeva la..<br />now waitin for him ta call mi..<br />so bored...<br />wadeva la..<br />end here..<br />nothin to say coz nothin excitin happen..<br />gtg..bye<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111859287741457142?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1118147692348678382005-06-07T05:03:00.000-07:002005-06-07T05:34:52.353-07:00needs<br />every1 has their own needs<br />e ppl who need help from others to live<br />are lyk e old folks and little kids<br />they r unable to do some things<br />by themselves...<br />they need our help lyk babies need us<br />to take care of them, feed them and stuff<br />e old folks are unable to carry out<br />some chores or even carry some stuff...<br />today.. mi, hui min and shi qi<br />we went ta send lunch and dinner<br /> to some of e old folks and help them<br />clean their homes..<br />mostly homes tat we went to..<br />need ppl to help them to do e house chores..<br />they r either discharged from the hospitals<br />or they r suffering from some illness...<br />i went to mdm teo's house today...<br />she was a old lady(around 89...)<br />she was friendly person...<br />she was veri grateful to us when<br />we visited her and helped her do some chores<br />i washed e toliet and mopped e floor wif ah min..<br />den we proceed to the second house..<br />oh.. man.. she is a fussy woman!!!!<br />mdm sim was veri specific abt cleanliness!!<br />her house is already so clean she still wan us<br />to mop the floor for 3 times!!!!<br />argh..<br />dunno her la..<br />we volunteered to mop but<br />she said tat she is showin us how to mop!<br />den she apparently mopped wadeva i mopped!<br />wa kao!<br />argh... neva mind..<br />i muz learn to be patient!<br />argh...so frustrated...<br />gtg..<br />my sis is do irritatin!<br />buai..take care ppl...<br />lurva ya=P<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111814769234867838?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1118030961246534382005-06-05T21:02:00.000-07:002005-06-05T21:09:21.250-07:00quite long neva update le..<br />i dunno wad ta write la...<br />dam moody when i blog lol..<br />juz got pissed by prawn man...<br />hai... hate stayin at home lol...<br />argh...fcuk...<br />dunno wad ta do...<br />homework still got alot lol...<br />dun feel lyk doin lo...<br />hai... end here le la...<br />anyway..i wanna say a big thank u<br />to e ppl who r concern abt mi...<br />thank u so much!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111803096124653438?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1117520585013539892005-05-30T23:22:00.000-07:002005-05-30T23:51:21.790-07:00wAd?<br />wad is tat u wan from me?<br />haven i done enough?<br />do u enjoy torturing ppl?<br />do u lyk to see ppl in torment?<br />do u enjoy doin tat?!<br />is tat the reason?<br />is tat wad u wan?<br />is tat all?<br />although i have try all means..<br />jus to please u,<br />make u happy...<br />but wad have u done to me?<br />this is not the first time u have been doin tis...<br />u have been using me in the veri beginning!<br />wads wrong wif u?<br />am i just a toy?<br />when izit tat u realli go n do?<br />do u get serious?<br />wad can u do?<br />slack around and ask ppl to come n go<br />whenever u r happy?<br />i am not ur puppy...<br />i am a human...<br />i have feelings...<br />y muz u inflict pain onto me time and again?!<br />wad have i done wrong?<br />perharps the only mistake was to noe u..<br />the greatest mistake is to believe in u...<br />the worst thing to do was to make u happy...<br />the most stupidest thing is to even allow<br />u to torture me...<br />i hate u.....<br />after all these...<br />i dun tink i can even forgive u...<br />i am tired...<br />u seem to be a flawless ass in the presence of every1<br />u r nothin but a hypocrite!!!!<br />u fucker...<br />i really hope tat i had neva known u<br />u make my life a living hell!<br />u loser...<br />get lost...<br />i dun ever wanna see u...<br />dun present your digusiting look<br />which contain your filthy soul in my presence...<br />u make me despise u even more...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111752058501353989?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1117358473108537582005-05-29T01:50:00.000-07:002005-05-29T08:23:35.286-07:00yeah<br />liling come back from camp le<br />so happy...<br />miss her so much lol...<br />yeah...since she left for camp<br />many things happen lol....<br />no one to talk to at night..<br />but luckily in class got michelle,<br />fion &amp; lijun to crap with...<br />hahahaha....so funny lol...<br />but when night arrives...<br />there is no one i can tell my prob to..<br />anyway she already come back le...<br />juz went out and had lunch wif her...<br />ate mac at enter...<br />den walked to kiddy palace and talk..<br />while walkin there, we passed by some shops<br />and we each bought similar bracelet....<br />den we went to kiddy's palace and talk..<br />we chat for a few hours...<br />told her everything tat happen tis week..<br />tell her wad happened in class...<br />wad happened in C.L.A.S.S.<br />and tell her some other stuff(secret!)<br />we had alot of fun lol...<br />play, takin pic and<br />tellin each other how tis week has affected us<br />or wad happen during tis week...<br />haha.. i say until we both lyk les lyk tat..<br />no la... we r juz quite close...<br />anyway liling also got suitors...<br />hehe...=P<br />holiday come le..<br />but it doesnt seem to be a holiday to me lol<br />had ta go back to sch 2 to 3 times every week<br />got a-maths remedial, c.l.a.s.s. meetin and cca<br />hai... den still got literature lesson<br />at woodlands regional library..<br />hai... so sian...<br />den still got loads of homework to complete...<br />especially SS lol...<br />wad kao...<br />got group work and indiv project lol..<br />gtg and do research le..<br />bye... take care ppl<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111735847310853758?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1116741200553426652005-05-21T22:36:00.000-07:002005-05-25T05:32:20.443-07:00<div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">wow </span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">went ta mr jhee's church yesterday</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">wow... he really sang man..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">and honestly, he really can sing...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">i meant with shi qi and took 153..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">wa kao... e journey was quite long..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">i cant sit too long in a bus or else i would feel giddy..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">but overall, it was alrite la...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den reached e place...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">stanley came and brought us to e church..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">when we first enter e place,</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">we saw mr jhee jumping and singin..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">he was veri high...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">jumping and bouncing...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">e place was realli liven up by him..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">every1 followed to jump and joined in the singin</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">it was quite fun...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den every1 sat down and heard the father speak</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den after 2 hours...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">but during the 2 hours, i dunno suan stanley how many times</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">hahahaha... dam funny lol...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">i bully him until he has nothin to say lol..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den came mr jhee...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">he said tat we realli caught him off guard..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">he was realli surprised tat we were there...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">he was quite happy..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den we went for dinner with mr jhee and stanley</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">dam funny....</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">crap wif mr jhee...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">funny lyk hell lol...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">but mr jhee couldnt stay for long as he had to rush to somewhere</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">so stanley accompany us...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">we also crap wif him..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den he asked us some questions on god and stuff</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">had quite an enjoyable talk wif him</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den came his boys...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">omg lol... there was a boy...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">he dam irritatin lol..... </span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">wad e #$%&! lol</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">he dam lame la....</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">wadeva... den stanley send us to e bus stop </span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">and we board e bus back to tp</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">went to inter and saw wei hong...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">he keep sayin shi qi as you zhi</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">funny lol....</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">aniwae.. we took 238 home and tats it...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">hahahaha..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">dun feel lyk blogging le..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">soooooo... take care ppl..</span></div><p align="left"><br /> </p><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111674120055342665?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1116603645524845952005-05-21T00:25:00.000-07:002005-05-25T05:32:05.616-07:00<div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">CIP</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">todae was CIP day</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">e whole skool when out and sell flag</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">e sec 3 were assigned to orchard</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">my class was given e spot</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">hereen and around cathay...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">my partner was michelle...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">we start of when mrs liu dismissed us... </span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">we were e first few ta leave skool and reach e bus stop</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">but e stupid bus came so late and every1 was already waitin...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">i and michelle was so tired of squeezin wif every1</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">so we took cab...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">and e sec 1 boys snatched taxi wif us...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">lame lolx... dunno how ta give way to a gerl lol</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">wad e hell... piece of shit</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den michelle snatch tis pair of sec 1's cab </span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">but gettin in e cab</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">while e boy r talkin....cunnin sia</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">hahaha... at least we got e cab...hehehe</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den we went ta wheellock ta buy coffee</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">and walked ta hereen....</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">when we reached hereen, it was lyk 1.30</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">and there was realli nobody even in e shoppin mall</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">veri few... ask who to donate sia</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den we went ta cathay nobody there too and cannot go inside</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">so we went to taka...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">we ask e public ta donate but</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">we met up wif some stingy freak den around 2,</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">everything ta ti change.. </span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">e cowards starts to get bigger </span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">and e ppl became more generous</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">givin 2 to 5 each time..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den there was lyk a few skools who was also</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">askin for donations too lol</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">veri competitive.....</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">but me and michelle went on lol...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">no choice ma...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">met up wif so ppl wif ATTITUDE lol</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">dam fuckin rude</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">dun wanna donate den say la...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">dun need to act as if u r king lyk ta</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">we have ta beg ya to donate lol</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">idiot...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">wadeva....den we saw tis malay softball player from our skool</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">he could get any1 to donate...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">hahaha lol</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">when he saw ppl donatin for us he was fuming...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">hahahahaha... so funni lol</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">den.. after around 4...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">we went back ta hereen and saw thomas, lyon, fion and amanda</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">we got 2 quite shuai actors ta help us donate...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">and they did...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">around 4.45, we went back to somerset mrt station..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">waited and waited till 5 plus den we can leave...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">wa kao lol... my whole body was achin lol</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">argh....den went somewhere wif sotong and met up wif paul</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">talk for a while den he left le...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">when ta buy some stufffs and went home....</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">now tryin to waste time...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">hahaha... y m i so lame lol</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">end here le coz i dun wanna talk abt my results...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">dam freakin lousy... hai... dun say le..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">good nites...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">sweet dreams</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111660364552484595?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12309093.post-1116312956198973162005-05-16T23:42:00.000-07:002005-05-25T05:40:32.536-07:00<div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">finally over</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">e exams r finally over...<br />so darn relief lolx...<br />but tis didnt bring me much joy...<br />had alot of different things in my mind...<br />i dun really feel happy rite now...<br />thought of many incident...<br />everythin juz flash thru my mind...<br />as if todae was my last day on earth...<br />y... most of e flashes r abt *him*...<br />all abt him....<br />worried abt him yet cant ask abt him..<br />wad the @%6#&amp;%$.....<br />dunno wad i should do....<br />i dunno who to talk to...<br />there is no one..... at there...<br />i m tired... no one understands<br />wanna end it all...<br />end all of it rite now...<br />sick of it....<br />y has it to be me....<br />argh.....</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/12309093-111631295619897316?l=underneathreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>crystalnoreply@blogger.com0